yamanai ame da neeee

Thursday, March 30, 2006

oh yah
still got this.

Oh yeah, here's 12 Days of X'mas Matong-style (Sung to the tune of 12 Days of Christmas).
12 lamb chops
11 guidey badges
10 dead Ms Eewgs
9 A1s
8 scholarships
7 band tickets
6 toilet bowls
5 Blink cds!
4 Clay Aikens
3 warped tours
2 GC books
And a Randy H. on my TV

And because Liting doesn't have a blog, here's 12 Days of X'mas Liting-style!
12 million neopoints
11 guidey badges
10 dead Ms Eewgs
9 labradors
8 long recesses
7 big mac burgers
6 month of hols
5 Energys!
4 Nike shoes
3 double deckers
2 maths A1s
And a tree-hugging scholarship

omg that was like dunno when..
shit long ago!
11 march 2004.

and celebs,
look at THIS.
http://liting.livejournal.com/2005/03/18/
OUR FIRST EVER BBQ!
and eunice's bday!!!
omg... so nice!
remember our ingenious cake plan?!

1:55 AM

i can't believe i'm crying now.
ahhhh... i can't believe it.

me and matong were...
reliving the days.
hahaha...

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CNY DECOR FOR 3 UNITY
2004

Stayed back to decor the retarded class today till about 5pm. Right, only me, Liting and Yanni who isn't in our class. Great. Went insane cuz we were probably too restless or something Sang "Peace like an asshole"... hahah. So lame. Who cares.

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jan 7 2004

Then halfway eh! The PA got problem and they started playing "IJ Spirit". (-_-ll) Lol.. then Liting was like mouthing the words haha dunno why it was just really really funny! Cuz maybe she was wearing her specs and her expression... hahahah. Laughed like mad.

Anw Physics was... scary. Mohan was like "Physics will kill you so you better learn it well..." He was really fierce. And he said we had to read the Physics txtbook before his lesson, he'll ask us about the contents '

Art! Haha my first art lesson. It was... quite scary at first cuz Mr Foo was showing us some Sec 4 work and man, it looked damn good loh. I don't think i can do so well Right so me and Liting felt really demoralized. But after that it wasn't so bad, they asked us to draw and shade and paint postures. I can't paint humans for nuts. Yeah but it went well

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Feb 5

Ahhhhh... i have no voice. Like really no voice, the most is a low "uhhhh" when i clear my throat (-_-). Wah lao loh... today Bethia and i were so lame, singing "I'm Lost Without You". It's like dead people singing a dead song. Hahaha... then cuz we had like a free hour so i was writing lyrics and trying to get Bethia to guess the song title. Lousy lah she Hahaha... whatever man.

Have to "jie sheng" on the tissue papers... and Liting suddenly exploded in the Hall and tissues were all thrown at us. Disgusting loh!

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FEB 16 2004

The Bald Song
Sung to the tune of The Young and Hopeless by GC

Cuz I'm young and i'm hairless
I'm bald and i know this
I've got no hair to cut, that's what they say
I'm troublesome, hair's fallen
I'm angry at the barber
It's me against this world and i don't care!

For Yanni's money-owing problem. Should be sung by Bethia.
Sung to the tune of She Bangs

$3.10! $3.10!
Yanni owes Butter $3.10! $3.10!
You better pay up cuz i look like a flower but i sting like a bee
Like every loan shark in history
$3.10! $3.10!

HAHAHA...
The hair song was inspired by me dropping too much hair cause i was stressed!
WTH.
HAhahaha... and yanni owed bethia money but she COULDNT REMEBER to pay up!
HAHAHAHA!!!

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tues, 28 dec 2004

-[brrr]- nothingness. says:
liting?!!
[Mi JiA Le!]-Christmas spirit? says:
AHHHHHHHHH!!!
[Mi JiA Le!]-Christmas spirit? says:
HAhahaah!!!
-[brrr]- nothingness. says:
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
[Mi JiA Le!]-Christmas spirit? says:
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!1
-[brrr]- nothingness. says:
OMG IS IT YOU?
[Mi JiA Le!]-Christmas spirit? says:
HAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!1
-[brrr]- nothingness. says:
OMG
-[brrr]- nothingness. says:
OMG
[Mi JiA Le!]-Christmas spirit? says:
YES!!!
[Mi JiA Le!]-Christmas spirit? says:
DUHHH!!!
[Mi JiA Le!]-Christmas spirit? says:
HAHAHA!!!

this was when we didnt see each other for.. i think 2 mths or smth.
during the hols.
hahah..

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1st july 2004

Okay ohhhhmygosh. Liting and I left the theatre like... all stunned and blah. Gosh.

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july 4 2004

This morning we had the Henna thing. Wow I actually woke up before the alarm rang. Gosh, that's a major feat Hee. Liting gave me a wake up call also. Met at Caltax and her folks drove us to the destination.

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23 july 04

Anw. Liting and I fell asleep in the library! Haha... she was having a headache and I was reading this encyclopedia then grew so tired I fell asleep. Haha I took up the entire sofa somemore! Liting said we slept for like 45min+. It was the shiok-est thing ever

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3 nov 2004

Had SO MUCH FUN with Liting, Aixin and Yanni yesterday Hahaha! Haven't laughed like that for a long long time, dude. Was so high during lessons. Liting and I were creating "lands" and I was still ALL HIGH from my rewatching. Heh, botox land! Haha Aft that during chemistry, I was giving her my lame questionaire which soon developed into a "Pair the Stars" session.
Total absurdity man, like dude, George Bush made an appearance. Haha... lame fun.

[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
THOSE WERE THE DAYS>
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
SO DUMB OMG
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
OMG....
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
hahahaha!!!
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
i hope i kept the paper!
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
its some maths shit..
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
is it?
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
hahahah..
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
yess!!
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
hahahah
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
hahah with the other class!
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
ans we were sitting in the back row.
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
omg..
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
YESS
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
omg..
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
and clemmy was so irritated with us!
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
with 4 hope!
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
YES!
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
HAHAHAH!!!
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
HAHAHHA
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
LAME ASS

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17 nov 2004

Due to certain unforseen circumstances, Eunice, Adeline, Liting and I had to celebrate a really impromptu occasion.
So everyone,
Happy Friendship Day (our version)

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sometime in august 2004

Art was so productive today! Ha. Cuz Foo didn't come in so that took away all the pressure in the world. Yeah! Did finish like 7/9 of the work but left a lot of touching up, esp the face. Haha... Winnie, Liting and I a bit not high la.

Talking about moods, today I feel soooo up in the sky! Hee. Every morning when I see Liting I can't help but think of qaf

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` Thursday, October 21 ` 2004

Liting and I went horrendously insane. We decided to make this list of every single man we ever thought was appealing and I mean EVERY single one, as far as we can remember. HAHA.

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` Tuesday, January 11 ` 2005

Mr Tan gave an offended "NO!" today.

To elaborate, it would be:
Him: "Is '1' a prime number?"
Us: *happily* "Yes!"
Him: *wth* "NO!"
Lol.

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DUDE WHERE'S MY WIRE??
[Feb. 7th, 200507:32 pm]
DUDE! Yo!!
...
Hahahaha she's mad!
...
Our hands are
D
E
A
D
!
Cannot receive angpao!
But nonetheless, I'm gonna be a lot richer at the end of this week!
MUAHAHAHA!
...
Hahaha she's mad!
...
I know!
And so are you!
...
My hands are so dying!
R
A
W

A
N
D

R
E
D
!!
...

Hahahhaah
BETHIA!! SAY SMTH!!!
...
My hand's bleeding!!!!!
...
Liting, Matong: AWWW!!!!!
...

The class owes us BIG TIME!but they will never pay... sigh!

omg do you guys REMEMBER??
this is the time we went to do that bian pao thingy for charissa to wear!
omg... and we to keep wearing a few times ourselves.
HILARIOUS.

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8 jan 05

the day celebs was formed.
celebrities uncensored :)
looks at the pics!
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[Feb. 15th, 200508:06 pm]

YO!!! HAPPY V DAY!!! [belated]Hahahah had so much fun this two days.. went to watch Constantine with winnie and matong yesterday.. play and play and play.. the cinema was cold and i was freezing my butt off! But the show is like damn it cool and Keanu Reeves[is tt how you spell] was very very good. and we met so many people!!! We saw.. Silin, Michelle and Ren Hui!! Hahahah quite exciting. Poor winnie, was standing there without a clue:) Anw, i think im crazy neos because..i dunno why.We took neos at the crazy machine with the crazy jap words that made us totally bonkers! hahha.. but it was fun lah..

WINNIE DO YOU REMB?
BLACK HEART?!
hahahaha... we didnt have a date aft art so we dated EACH OTHER!
Hahahahah..!

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` Friday, May 6 `

I did it! SBJ! Haha seriously thanks to Liting's mi jue (omg matong's saying Chinese!) I can FINALLY get smth other than bronze Hah thank you all

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May 17 2005

Okay after that, we had to do our English compre test. OHS. All of us went to the class, sat down and read the test paper and I was just finishing reading the last sentence when...
Someone informed us that we just had to go to see Aunty Cheong.
Like, in the middle of this English paper.
Wows.

Turns out that Aunty Cheong wants us to focus on Chinese and SOLELY on Chinese. Which means staying back for Chinese EVERY DAY till 430 to do mock papers. WTF. Apparantly it just serves to make me more resentful about the subject. It also meant no more CCAs and other subject tests. Liting and I were like, "Yeah right aren't we doing an English test right now??"

We probably spoke too soon.

Right after the -ahem- impromtu meeting, we went back to the class to find out that HEY! We don't need to take the test and at the same time, the History test on Fri is cancelled.
Unbelievable.

Seriously, it was like a dream. So anyway, we told the other class and watched with amusement at their shocked faces. Haha, lame shit. Suddenly it's like we're so free it's unnerving.
HOWEVER, Aunty Cheong caught us and made us do this mock test which in the process, fried my brain up. Like dude, I was totally in the English mode then SUDDENLY! It's all about yingyongwen and crap. Cannot focus! Was really killing myself back there in class, argh!! I wrote like the shortest zuowen in my life man.

Later Yien, Cheryl, Liting and Bethia gathered at macs for an ohsofree tea. Haven't had soooo much fun and laughter for such a looooong time at macs. Dammit liberating and weird. I keep thinking I must go home to study Mao.

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May 27 2005

Anyway, today is a very weird day. First the stupid formation of Mamasan (or Mamasai, whichever), next the parents meeting with teachers frenzy, then Liting falling and finally creating heidude! LOL. In other words, it's like we took drugs and got high today. I hope Liting didn't throw away the daisy Wendy and I bought Haha!

HAhahah winnie wendy REMEMBER?!
The grp we created to stay up and study chinese!
HEY DU DE!
HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

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june 6 2005

Went out with Liting and Bethia today. Gawd, SO TIRED!! And unfortunately, spent a lot of cash on necessary things like food at unnecessary classy places such as NYDC.

Anyway, I tell ya, I think we thoroughly embarrassed ourselves at 'Liting's store' (-_-). My GOODNESS. I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die =X Haha Liting was GOING MAD in there!!

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-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
Dee of the VeeDees
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
OMG
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
we used to call veron and doris VEE DEE!!
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
haahahahaha!!!!

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and now,

[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
haha we are so lame la
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
really
-[brrr]- chiku drive; and you can call me matong says:
i think we nvr did outgrew this lame shit haha
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
yes i think we never did.
[E.N.E.R.G.Y]- damn. says:
and i hope we never will

ahhh..
those were the days seriously.
i hope there are 4unity ppl reading this..
cause this were like all our lamo memories!
hai.. :(

12:26 AM

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Rest in peace..
and know that you have been loved.

:((((((((((
Ah... i can't believe it.
Feel so sad lah..
she's dead. hai..
I dunno what to say.

5:05 PM

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I'm beginning to think that i have just made the worst decision in my life and it's gonna cost me 2 years of my life paying back for that silly mistakes.
Not to mention that fact that the repercussions might just drag on and on..
Who knows?
Just like i didn't know it was a stupid decision when i took it.

8:54 PM

Freaking cold in the library..
haah supposed to be doing work but i'm not :)

go see matong's blog and look at that horrible picture!
Hahahah.. i accidentaily posted my pic onto her blog lah..
like how the hell did that happen??
Only someone like me can make that kind of mistake.
hahah..

Yes yes, keep tuning in for some interesting stuff.. :D

9:08 AM

Monday, March 27, 2006

I've been trying to supress it for a couple of days now but i have to say it cause im just dying trying to keep all that nervousness in!!!!
ahh....
They're gonna make us do the commands in the morning!!!
omggg... i wanna die.
The sedeya shit.. omg...
hahha... seeing the lost look of the J1 there today i was like seriously dying lah..!
AND to make it worst..
there were people LAUGHING at him!!
hahaha... like not laugh loudly lah.. but like murmuring laughter kinda thing..
arghhhh....
I'm gonna be so utterly embarrassed/////
and ppl are gonna tease me :((((((((((
I can foresee fengru's face lah!
And im so sure i'll screw smth up.
ah... this is even worst then having footdrill for the first time!
:(((
i wanna quite YA..... hahaha...

hai.. i shall stop thinking abt..
although i'll be reminded of it ~~everysinglemorning~~
until the day comes..
but NEVERMIND.
I have learnt that the mind can do great things..
by not thinking abt something, it'll almost seem like its not there at all..
(in other words, a mild case of denial)
Like that edmundwati leaving...
:(((
and the fact that our class is not bonding.
:(((
and the ancient gwee leaving shit.
:((((

ON A MORE CHEERFUL TOPIC,
i got my locker!!!
shared with dear betty.
the prospects of being able to put up energy/mayday pictures wont fail to make me smile :)))

oh something funny happened yesterday,
my sister and i went to watch Failure to Launch (it's really very nice super funny and extremely cute)
And then at the mrt station the platfomr thing,
I was wearing a super big jacket (the one at the cruise one..)
and stupid me, thinking that im some gu3 dai4 ren2 went to put my wallet in my sleeve there..
and promptly forgot all about it.
haha.. so i was talking and swinging my arms at the same time..
like in a wide circle swing..
and the wallet flewwwwwwwwww...
landed on the yellow line
and skidded to a stop one inch away from the track.
omg... hahaha..
all the ppl at the station was staring and my heart skipped multiple beats at once.
when i went to pic it up,
the couple a few metres away was like..

7:33 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Hai.. I dreamt that my dad died.
eeeeeeeee...
I can feel the shudders just thinking about it!

Anw, yesterday we went to rock climb with odac..
It was pretty fun!
But damn scary especially when you reached the top and look down..
haah freaky!
And they ask you let go when there's no tension on the harness?!
Omg.. ahahah i almost died when i fell downwards like for 1 second.
Thinking about it is making my hand clammy can.
oops.
But it really did turn out great.
Met a few new people.. and they're all very nice!
now i got this super huge patch of white paint on my sleeve cause i leaned on a just painted wall! :(
its on my innova pe-t..
Haha..So fahion huh.
Amanda made the ending of the day sad :(
hai.. so sad.
Just wanna tell you that you'll be missed real badly!
I guess we can all still meet up and have dinner and crap lah..
HAI!
I hate seperation......!

TO SOMETHING MORE CHEERFUL,
I got a ton of homework to finish!
So i gtg now.
BYE!

10:53 AM

Friday, March 24, 2006

"All you have to do is close your eyes
and just reach out your hand."

WENT OUT WITH CELEBS TODAY...
so nice :)
I love celebs..
I love feeling WELCOMED.
Like finally there are ppl who actually KNOW how i feel..
i guess the bond we share is smth nothing else can beat lah.
ahhh.. i miss stnicks.

Ate at Din Tai Feng..
Met CHAR!!!
Hahaha... so funny lah..
Talked for awhile.. haha maybe dtf is a good place to meet people..
Anw, we celebrated dearest YINING'S BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY 17TH!!!!
Hope you loved today :)
Cause i know i did!
The cake was seriously the best!
Talked for ages..
and i told them abt the overlooked shit..
hai.. at least some understands.
and others try.
Maybe because of the recent going ons in school i feel so good with the celebs.. haha..
and i just reached home..
Haha.. so fun so fun.
We shld do this more often lah..
Like go out more or to study or smth..
we must plan ok!

"I'll keep you safe
I'll keep you warm..
Keeping your faith when its gone.."

Security is a luxury.

11:38 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Today was an ok day..
Can't remember what we did already..
But i know i have alot of homework.
so i gtg.
Bye.......

Oh yah diana are you reading this?
nuinai is back in the media!
the superband thing is starting next mth..
and he went on teens for interview..
hahah omg he was so hot there lah!
hot hot hot!
I was like smiling to myself on the bus while reading it..
ah... :)))))))))))))))
And they put the typhoon intervies RIGHT after his..
i bet is purposely one loh!
I'll try to get some pics of the page for you..
hahah.. if i can.
Toro's makeup sucks lah seriously.
ewwwww/

7:34 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Suddenly miss the celebs and guides.
Can't wait for friday to come!! :)

Anw, today's school was pretty bad.
Like the after school part lah..
Oh oh... during pw, 33A SAT TOGETHER!!!!
YES MAN. finally.
oh then the pw topics are like so weird? i dunno what to do with it lah..
HAI.
Feeling the stress already.
oh yah ok aft school...
Had house meeting.. (i'm in rasalas..)
Then odac meeting..
Missed the nm arts meeting.. but nvm heard that it wasn't much.
Then we went to study..
omf.. ok i've been wanting to say this the entire period of time after school..
FUCK YOU H2 MATHS.
ahhhhhhh i was like bloody stuck at effing INEQUALITIES.
WHAT THE FFFF.
Felt so stupid and dumbbbbbb.
Shouldn't have taken H2 maths seriously..
WHY. WHY did i do it?!
arghhhhhhh.
fuckfuckfuckfuckuckfuckfuckfuckfuck....

9:23 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Oh yah i didn't forget!

THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU MATONG for making such a lovely bg for me :)

8:12 PM

Doing my GP essay now..
Hai...
I've been buying friends.
Feel so despo and miserable lah..
I brought Gobstoppers to school today.. and i had NO ONE to offer my sweet to!
Arghhhh i love you betty for accepting my sweet.
Haha... when i saw her i teared lah.
Omg.. i feel so insecure with where i am now.
I WANT 41B BACKKK.
I WANT 4UNITY BACK :(
Felt so terrible ok.. when at last someone took my sweet,
they sorta started accepting us lah.
Like wth.. hahaha... so miserable right.
Tml i'll bring.. haha lobster to school.
If that makes them happy.
I'll really do anything just to fit in..
ahhhhhhh.... someone save me from this madness.

:(

2:35 PM

Monday, March 20, 2006

You know how you forget about something.. like it just fades off and its..
no longer there.
How you can't remember how it has been like.
Even your dearest things, your best times.
'I'll remember you forever' or 'I'll never forget you'
Yah you remember. but you can longer recall how you felt at that particular time... how you felt about someone.. about something. anything.
Maybe God made our memories short so we forget things that made our lives unhappy... and for that we have to forget things that made us happy as well.
No one can have the best of both worlds.

Your old self.. it's been such a long time i can't remember how it was like..
People change, time past..
And you find that you are missing something... but you can't remember what it is.
It's like a hole in my memory..
WHAT happened?
What were you like?
What made us click like we did?
Seriously, i can't recall.

I lost you and i guess it's my fault...
Talking about her today made me think about how i have no right to go..
'I miss the old her'
especially when i can't remember when she actually changed?

Maybe i should not blame myself for everything that happened.
It takes two hands to clap afterall/
Give and take.
Take and give.

arghhh friendships are complicated things.

I'm so messed up inside thinking about it lah.
Just stone and stone and phase out..
Think i think too much about this kinda silly things..
Hahah.. maybe i should think about more constructive things like...
erm.. how to do my geog?
or how to please my mum to make her stop her incessant nagging..
Oh well.

6:28 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

I LOVE WICKED.

ahhhh...
so nice!!!
Matong just showed me the video..
oh man...
i was tearing at the last part..
the lyrics is just so beautiful.
:)))))

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew youI have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

Because I knew you

I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

And none of it seems to matter anymore

Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seed
A boulder, half-way Dropped by a
Through the wood Bird in the wood

Who can say if
I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better

And because I knew you

Because I knew you

Because I knew you
I have been changed for good

10:31 PM

THANK YOU AMANDA!
for giving me such a great 2 days.

Rushed back from that horrible camp..[shall talk abt camp nxt time if i feel like it]
reach home at ard 230..
left home at 330.
Haha.. for 6 days i spent 1 hour at home!
anw,
for the first day...
can't really rem what we did..
had dinner at this really high class place..
oh man amanda's parents are really sweet lah..
they're like so.. haha..romantic still!
lost in their own world and all :)
Aft tt we went to borrow vcds..
aiyoh all pirated one lah!
Hahaha... the images were really bad.
STARCRUISE SUPPORTS PIRACY.
tsk/
HAha.. totally unrelated.
but the toilet is soooo nice!!
and hhaha.. if you dont close the blind thingy you can actually look out onto the ocean.
so nice!!!
and the toilet has no door. haha..open concept.
bet it's for couples lah.

slept at 430 and missed breakfast.
got drunk at night.
hahaha.. amanda and joy got so high lah!
they were laughing and laughing and laughing(x1000)
and yah! they ate a flower petal.
carnation flower somemore. haha..
then they went to the boys toilet :/
hahah.. i was falling asleep lah so i couldnt be bothered to go with them.
haha..
the rest of the day i can't remember alr.
my head was throbbing so bad and i felt like puking.
haha.. sorry if i snapped at anyone!
i was grumpy. oops.

aiyah got alot of things lah.
very very funnn!

9:37 PM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

On hindsight,
the funfair was great.

It was just me not having fun lah.
Cause of my foul mood.
and that horrible weather.
and alot of other things.
hahah...
like seeing REBECCA.
yucks.

That day when feng ru and i were talking,
she made me feel like a lousy YA.
NOW, talking to matong has made me wanna quit lah.
150 is ridiculous!
I can go to that incredibly nice nice buffet(is it The Line or smth?) we talked abt. remember?!
I demand lobsters, pillows stuffed with best down, silk blankets, luxurious bath rooms, air con rooms, a mosquito-free environment and free gifts.
HAHA.
RIGHHHT.
The day i have THAT for CAMP will be the day God decends to earth.
ok lah im talking rubbish.
basically, i'm just trying to say that it will NEVER happen.
not in my prettiest dreams and definitely not in real life.
argghhhhhh.
I HATE YA!
I bet they ate up 70% of my cash and used the rest to book the campsite and to give us horrible food!

I HATE YA,
.
.
.

I HATE YA.
.
.
.

I HATE YA!

ahhh now i feel alot better.
Hhahaa..

Anw,
I've been sleeping my whole day off.
and i haven't done any homework!
So dead.
Haiii. Shall do it at night later.
After LXG!!!!
oh yessss. lxg :)
Can't wait lah!

hahah.. i had a really nice dream just now.
you guys will NEVER guess what it is lah.
I hope i weren't sleep talking if not my sister would know!
omg. and i DO sleep talk!
shit man.
The dream was so nice... and the best thing is i didn't know it's a dream..
unlike most of the times when i'm dreaming i KNOW i'm dreaming..
yay... i'm happy.
ok i gtg.
watch tv.
I think LXG do alr...
bye ppl/.

6:56 PM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

I hate life.

Had a great time yesterday lah.. actually.
Disney is the best inventor in the world to have invented all those cute cute cute characters.
Disney on Ice was great. :)
Love all the songs..
esp Beauty and the Beast and Lion King..
altho Simba was reallly ugly.
but heck
he skates really well.

Just came back from sn funfair..
realised that funfairs are not fun.
Maybe i just wasn't in the mood.. was just super tired the whole day.

March hols are like.. shit.
seriously i'm still brooding abt the YA camp?
Can't believe i paid so much for it.
omggg.
I must have been dumb.
YA sorta killed my passion for guides.
have no idea why i joined.
Life would have been better without it.

Haiii i'm sorry i'm complaining so much but nobody wants to hear my complains (obviously) so i can only type it here..
now i wish nobody knew abt this site so that nobody will get irritated by the complain-some me.. so that no one will think i'm a brat.
haha.i think i am.
yah so i think you all don't read lah..

so many things i can't say.

I'm so sorry i have nothing to say to you anymore.
I'm so sorry i cant stand the way you have changed.
I'm so sorry i can't stand who you have becomed.
I'm so sorry i can't accept you properly for who you are.
I'm so sorry i feel so irritated by/with you for no reason.

I hate being left out.
I hate feeling insignificant.
I hate being overlooked.
I hate to change myself to fit in.
I hate it that nobody likes who i really am.
I hate having no direction in life.

For the first time in my life i feel that i don't know where i wanna go.
Like long term wise.
I feel so lost abt everything now.
Just follow follow.
See where things take me.
No wonder people overlook me.
I make no decisions on my own.
I make no stand.

ok i dunno what all that was abt...
its just like things that were bottled up in me for a long long time.
I wish i can just like type out all i feel...
i wish i can be brave enough to say what i think...
i wish i can not care about what people think about me.

I hope i was stuck at 15 forever.

3:44 PM

Friday, March 10, 2006

Im in the com lab now doing nothing.
Which was practically what i did in school today...
Nothing.

I was supposed to come to school for some lit shit today.. then in the end we didnt do it at all!
So dumb.... wasting my time doing some crap and now i'm trapped in school until 1240..
later i still have to go to the guide house to hand in that stupid form for the YA camp.. wth lah i hate YA....! Make me pay like ard 200 bucks for some stupid shit so far.. wah lao.
they think we're very rich.
I dont see what freaking camp at CAMP CHRISTINE can cost 150 freaking bucks.
What are they gonna do with all that money?
Give us lobster for dinner everyday?!
I don't want to go for the camp lah.. i'll miss the bridging courses!
and the north div day in st nicks.
Hai.. talked to feng ru today and i realised what a useless YA i am..
omg.. i don't even know anything thats happening in st nicks.
and i like have no idea who's organising the NDD and all that shit.
She gave me that.. :/ face.
ahhh what the shit lah.
I hope she's not reading this man.
hahaha.. ok lah no lah. its the truth.

HAIII. Yesterday was the first day winnie didnt spent her birthday with me in 2 years.
4 years if you count(pri 5 and 6)
and 6 years if you count all our years tgt..
this year is the first year we were like.. seperated lah.
ahhhh...
Can't stand all the new schools thing..
i want st nicks back.
I want my old life backkkkk.
NEVERMIND.
Tonight she invited me to a date.
HaHaHahaaa...
Secret date... :)
No lah.. i'm going to disney on ice with her later!!!!!
OMGGG with WENDY AND ESTER!!!
Hai.. so sad thats its not a one on one date *wink wink* :)
ahh so exciting lah i cant wait!
DISNEY ON ICE LEHHHH.
Fisrt its jing qu jiang now its disney one ice..
ahhh i love you winnie!
What makes it even better is that i've been yearning to see my sec school friends for a long time now.. YAY.

Tml is the sn funfair..
yessss.
I'm gonna have so much FUN!
Ok maybe not. ahh whatever.
I want to set up a stall and sell things lehh......

11:29 AM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

omggggggggg.

CJ is CURSED!
omg.

omg.

I'm in shock now.
Just 1 hr before i was listening to it in the MRT.
Listening to N Sync. and Disney.
AND NOW ITS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE LIFT HOLE./////
Wow.
wowwwww.
my shit.
impossible.
I cant believe it!

Imagine that small thin shit falling into the darkness of that horribly thin slit.
omg.
ohhhhh myyyyyyy shittttttt.

8:35 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

When You Say Nothing At All

It's amazing how you
Can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word
You can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face

Lets me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes

Saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand

Says you'll catch me wherever I fall

You say it best

When you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear

People talking out loud

But when you hold me near

You drown out the crowd

Try as they may

They can never defy

What's being said

Between your heart and mine

The smile on your face

Lets me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes

Saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand

Says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best

When you say nothing at all...

HAIIII... just read something..

Haha.. dunno why but i just felt that i had to post the song.

So.. yah.

9:42 PM

KITE RUNNER IS THE BEST BOOK EVER.
ahh really very nice.
:)))))
Go read it......
i gurantee you the best time ever.

ANW.
0641B is (partly) BACK!
yess yes yes.
So happy! Can't believe it man...
Everyone was just appealing back cause they couldn't stand their new schools.
Yes.
Innova rocks. hahha...
I'm addicted to our innova cheer but i don't know how to do it properly.. so sad.
Here's part of it.
I say A-V-O (A-V-O)
i say N-N-I (N-N-I)
Turn it around (turn it around)
Fly it through the sky (through the sky)
I say i-n-n-o oh v-a x3
I SAY I-N-N-O OH V-A
INNOVA!
Hahah ok i'm mad lah.
Delirious with happiness.
HAH! :)

Yes ok.. to the more serious stuff...
our 2 days of timetable is out..
and on friday i have FIVE hours of free period...
what i'm i gonna do?????
so dead mannnn.
Oh yah and because of that totally dumb and superrr expensive YA camp,
i can't go for the bridging classes!!!!
HOWWWWWWW.
I'm gonna faint and die.
I won't understand anything for H2 maths!!
I'm gonna suffer the consequences of not going lah seriously.
ahhhhhh... whyyyy did i join YAaaaaaaaaaaa.
Regreting now.
oh yah and now i have THREE ccas.
I must be mad.
I joined photography!
Its sort of like AVA... then you go ard taking photos during school activities..
sounds cool.

Today we went to pj..
super hot.
Their hall stinks lah cause everyone was in it and its the not windy kind..
Hahaha but they got this very cute ice kacang song..
a tat spastic but super funny..
its done in acapella(is tt how you spell?)
and its very nicely sung! hahaha...

Tml's the start of official lessons..
innova's uniform's very stiff and uncomfortable..
wonder how many times i'll have to wash it before it starts to feel un-new.

6:49 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

'For you a thousand times over'

Kite Runner.

WAhhhh its really a very very nice book.
Even people who havent read for 243254654 years should go read it.
I haven't finished.. but so far so good.

12:24 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

I was a total wreck in school today.
Morning started out fine.. it was great.
Our first and last breakfast together...

Then we had geog.. it was a summary of what we did for the whole term.
GP.
Hai... thats when it all started lah.
We were watching a movie thing.. everyone was so... laid back. drowsy. relaxed.
It felt so natural.
I was sitting at the back of the class and i could see everyone's back view..
it was just so sad.. to think that by the same time next week,
the scenery would have changed.
The people would be different..
the mood, cautious.
No one would know each other..
putting on false smiles.. paying attention, sitting nice and proper..
just to give the right impression.
Just sucks like shit to think that everything would change again.
I'll have to go through that tiring process of making friends again.
and i know i'd never ever make that kind of group of friends ever again.
I guess it's always that way, in a new environment, it felt good to have someone to turn to..
to have some people to laugh at stupid things about.
The first would always be the best.
Simply because its just so.. original. so new. so great.
Looking at all their heads i just felt this terrible urge to cry.
argh.. and knowing me, i did lah. duh.
I dunno why.
Why have i grown so attached?
In that short period of time they have quietly given me the best time i could ever ask for.
They made me feel that i belong.
All of them were just so sweet and nice.
Maybe thats why.
Just when i'm beginning to feel so comfortable.. we are gonna be seperated.
Hai.. i took so long to find them and now it took just one day.
one day. to end it all.

After school.
People started leaving lah. shit man really really shit.
That was the hardest moment of the day.
People left like they were coming back.
Like we just ended another normal day.
Like everything would be exactly the same on monday.
and silly me was feeling so depressed about it that i started sobbing. again.
Wth lahhhh.
Hai the tears just kept coming and they couldnt stop flowing.
Seriously i was embarrassed about it because of all the GUYS around.
Wah.. I dont want to let my classmates see me crying loh.
but like i could help myself right.
Me and my super active tear ducts....
Anyway the crying went on for.. a long long while.
It was like.. tear. dry. tear. dry.
Then when anyone leaves i would start crying.
Edmund then Rohanna Zhonghao Yu'an Jolyon Wei jean Cheryl Fiona...
I almost died from those hundreds of sour clenches i kept experiencing when they left.
I have no idea why i was so affected. but i was. haiii.

Today will be the last time we walk home together.
the last time we walk aimlessly around cwp.
the last time we have lunch together at the horizon shit.
the last time we develope photos at the funny machine.

On the way to cwp i couldnt help but start tearing again.
I tried not to think about it.
But i was.
Whats WRONG with me?
haha.
Too emotional. thats what.
Hhaha.. think they didn't notice till we were reaching..
I'm pro :)
I know we'll be having more outings after that.
I know you guys have booked all my saturdays.
but it'll just be different.
I want be in school with you guys.
To walk the corridors together.
To spy on people together.
To endure the days together.

Hai.. i know i'm selfish. I demand too much.
All of you have your paths to take.
But i fell too hard for all of you..
Too hard for me to take.

7:02 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Today was funnnnn.
ok.. the after school part.
Fell asleep during maths..
Oh yah i love our chinese teacher seriously.
HAhaha... he's cool!
yay.. i'm so glad to be blessed with good chi teachers all my life :)
yes anw..
I feel so glad for shu duan :)
and i'm so proud of myself! HAhaha.. i bet she's had the best time of her life :))))))
Went to swensons and had a great time talking and laughing like dunno what shit..
hahahah! laughhhh until i couldnt breath!
then... hm.. talk for like... 1 hr+++?
Dunno how long.. then we went to develope photos..
had a teeko fight with amanda at the mrt station hahahaha...
yah then i JUST reached home.
So tired lah..
Hai... i'm really gonna miss them alot alot alot alot alot.

Tml is our last day together and we havent taken a class photo.
Thats damn sad.
Oh welll... tml lah.
Going to have breakfast and be delibrately late.
Hahahahha!
Who cares man its the last day alr. Just be wild for once..

Dont want tomorrow to come.

8:33 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Think i shall talk about today at school..
it was deuter day!
hahah so lame... but very fun..
had to take stupiddd photographs like we were models of deuter. haha!
That was during chinese lin lao shi went for the a lvl chinese thing..
then we played disney music and played
'guess the song' :)
so fun!!! and quite lame lah. ahahha i felt like a kid man.
Hilary Duff resang Kiss the GIRL
like wth. firstly its like just weird/
secondly she totally spoilt it ok! wah.. i wanna die man.
Hahaha.. it's horrible!

Ok.. anw, before that we had.. erm geog?
Geog lesson today was terrible and i feel amazed that i can rmb so many facts.
50% of children under 15 are sexually and physically abused. Normally, that person would be their HUSBAND. wts man.
People who give birth before 20 might get this disease called Fistula.
Fistula is... the most grusome and awful disease in the whole wide world.
omg.. its's seriously unbelievable.
There is a piece of flesh btw the virgina and rectum and there would be a huge HOLE in that flesh. ouchhhhhh.
Shit and urine flows uncontrollably from the rectum to the virgina through the hole.
arghhhhh. wth wth wth.
and this is a quote
'If the women has triplets the hole might be there forever'
from Mrs Siva.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH... feel so freaked out by it.
I mean its not gonna happen to me, but just thinking abt it is enough to make me wanna puke lah.
Can you imagine what sort of lives they lead?! argh.
Cant get over it.

Speaking of Mrs Siva,
she's really qt idiotic.
Cause at first we were saying smth abt the kids not being able to protect themselves cause they didnt even have CLOTHES to wear in the first place.
and then someone said got clothes also no use lah..
like what sort of clothes can protect them from abuse?
and edmund was like 'can wear metal underwear haha..'
omggg sorry but it sounds sooo ridiculous and funny and stupid we were lauging like nobody's business!
and then in front of everyone in the LT siva was like
'Why, Liting you want to get married ah?'
WHAT LAH. hahahhaa...
crazy one loh. embarrass me in front of EVERYONE!
all the ppl turn ard to look lah! wah lau.
Can't stand her leh.

Hai.. 2 more days to the last day already.
Tml's gonna be our last pe tgt.
Playing touch rug :/
Why cant it be soccer! hai... nvm anything will do lah.

8:44 PM